So that was my promising soothsayer career down the tubes...
I've told that story many a time now, along with all the advice that we received in our early days. 'The first two years are tough and then it levels out', was usually the gist of it, with variations on the timescale.
Now of course, in the midst of this latest challenge, I am reading about new companies on the verge of launch, or in their first weeks, when the rug was pulled out from under their feet. I guess we were lucky after all.
This is our ninth birthday - we took the keys on 15 Howe St on 1st of April 2011 and found it funny to set up on April Fool's Day. As is often the way with the world, this is not exactly now I imagined the day would be nine years later, heading into our final year!
I remember that as a child, one of my defining theories was that however you imagined an event unfolding would be wrong, as if the act of imagining would magically rule out that result. Thus I spent many hours imagining bad conclusions in the hope that the only available outcome would be the positive.
Maybe that was the start of my minor obsession with risk assessment; Stuart will happily confirm that I am always the first one on scene with a 'wet floor' sign, or standing with my ear pressed to the coffee machine listening for suspicious sounds..
But no, of course I did not see this one coming, although I am, as we speak, imagining all the outcomes that I can and trying to plan for each.
I signed off the last blog post with a hope that we can learn from this; that we can approach life from a different and more tolerant angle. I think it will be unavoidable now not to be affected in some way, mentally, by the experience. We consider ourselves invulnerable much of the time, so to know that events outwith our control can so fundamentally shift our way of life in a few weeks is something entirely new to take on board.
I am an optimist, which maybe makes me stupid, but I do hope that this intermission makes us more aware of the fragile position we hold on our planet and how we need to take heed of it, and take care of it.